Turn and face the Strange.

I haven't completely gotten out of this funk that I've been in since 2010, but some days, (like today), it feels like I'm so close that I can taste it. In the midst of all this revamping of my current website, (www.anarchicdesigns.com), I came to the realization that I've outgrown that name. Anarchic Designs. I only began calling my company that to suit my alter ego Ella Anarchy. Or, rather, what was *supposed* to be my alter ego. But why did I need an alternate 'me' to begin with? Is it because I've never been truly satisfied with who I am? Maybe that's where most of my problems started. I think I set myself up for expectations that were maybe a little too far out of reach. But "Ella Anarchy"?? Come on. That's not really who I am anymore. Maybe it never was...

I've made the decision to start doing away with "Ella Anarchy" and "Anarchic Designs". I have to go back to square one, and back to concentrating on finding the real me, not somebody hiding and getting lost behind a fake persona. It's not something that's going to happen overnight, but I'm just putting it out there so that there aren't any huge surprises when I complete my transformation, so to speak. I feel like a caterpillar in it's chrysalis and I'm still not ready to emerge as this new me that I'm working on. But when my wings are complete, I hope that they will never fall off again.

As usual, I've fallen in love with Jeremy Scott's latest offering from NY Fashion Week:

I think he's definitely the designer I aspire to be like the most. But to be clear: I don't want to be "the next Jeremy Scott". I want to be the first ME.



I have a photoshoot set up with some awesome people tomorrow, to show off the newest creations that didn't get to walk the runway this time around.



I'm taking it one step at a time...
:)



<3

In sickness and in (mental) health... 'till death do us part.

And the official award for coolest designer that ever lived goes to...

Those glasses have my name written all over...

JEREMY. SCOTT.

The rest of us 'wannabes' can only hope to have even a smidgen of your awesomeness, someday...

Until then, we shall patientlyanxiously await your next creations.

Love,
me.

*all photos taken from Nylon.com*